I’m Not Dead

It has been too long since I’ve wrote anything. I finally left the “farm” and will be writing about how my crops went. I also have plans on writing about brewing and tinctures. There might even be an audio blog added. I also have some interesting information on the drug ondanestron, an anti-nausea drug that is a 5-HT3 antagonist which recently was discovered to control opiate withdrawal and tolerance to opiates. For now I plan on writing a few pieces for a new punk zine and doing some political activism. If you live in Pennsylvania, PLEASE contact your local state representative and ask them to support HB 1393, the bill that would legalize medical marijuana in PA. So in the next week or so I plan on adding a big post.

Two Evils

Never underestimate the unfathomable depths of stupidity.

Biden should crush Pallin in the Vice Presidential debate. As much as I absolutely dislike and despise Biden’s liberal and anti-gun positions, there seems to be no question he should be able to run circles around Pallin’s permafrozen airheadedness.

It would be funny and predictable if the VP debate gets higher TV ratings than the first presidential debate between McCain and Obama did. Nothing could be more pointless, and usually, most often traditionally ignored, than a Vice Presidential debate.

On another subject, I have come across a great brew. I’ll post the recipe but here is a glimpse at the ingredients list: cannabis, poppy seeds, wormwood, coffee, cinnamon, nutmeg, and maybe some other psychoactives. May have more of a beer hybrid than a wine but to say the least it is a very interesting recipe. More on that soon.

On the Campaign Trail ‘08

“They ought to be disappointed in Ron Paul. Endorsing a theocratic candidate ["constitution" party candidate Chucky Baldwin] makes little sense whatsoever. What we’re trying to do is what we hoped Ron Paul would have done, which is to provide true focused leadership.” -Bob Barr, 2008 Libertarian Party candidate

Ron Paul has basically given a defacto endorsement to the theocratic “constitution” party candidate Chuck Baldwin. I think for anyone who actually believed in Paul’s platform or in libertarian ideas in general should vote for the libertarian party, if only to give the party more numbers.
The “constitution” party reads like the libertarian party, EXCEPT, they are still drug warriors, they say there can be no debate on abortion, and their charter names the lord, even actually states Jesus Christ, jesus christ!

The Constitution Party gratefully acknowledges the blessing of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ as Creator, Preserver and Ruler of the Universe and of these United States.

So unless you are fortunate enough to live in Louisiana where there will be the option to vote for a Ron Paul / Barry Goldwater Jr under the party the Louisiana Taxpayers Party, or if he should appear on any other ballot as a pre-approved choice, you should vote for BOB BARR THE LIBERTARIAN CANDIDATE, NOT RON PAUL’S BUDDY CHUCK “THEOCRACY” BALDWIN.

REMEMBER: The libertarian party has for over a year been trying to GIVE Ron Paul the nomination. Even after the republican primaries he had ample time to accept the presidential (and as recent as a few weeks ago) the vice presidential candidacy of the libertarian party which has the third largest base and should have ballot access in 47-49 states.

RON PAUL BLEW IT.
HE CLAIMED TO BE GIVING US CHOICE AND SPREADING “HIS” MESSAGE but now Ron Paul is saying,
“It is not against the law to participate in more then one political party. Chuck Baldwin has been a friend and was an active supporter in the presidential campaign….

I’ve thought about the unsolicited advice from the Libertarian Party candidate, and he has convinced me to reject my neutral stance in the November election. I’m supporting Chuck Baldwin, the Constitution Party candidate.” -Ron Paul

Even though I personally do not trust Bob Barr and have zero faith in him, he had the potential to bring the votes and funds in IF the Paul had pushed his influence in the right direction. Instead Paul wasted his time pulling a bullshit press conference that was 50% Ralph Nader mental masturbation and in the end, ended up endorsing a candidate and party whose platform is THEOCRATIC just because Bob Barr wasn’t into the whole, “any 3rd party vote is a vote for change” BS. I still totally believe in what he TRIED to do, but in the end it seems this revolution may have accomplished NOTHING for giving America a real choice on the ballot in a year we absolutely need more than McBama and O’Cain.

Addendumb… To anyone that gives a shit anymore, PLEASE REPOST THE ABOVE and the below any typos, grammatical mishaps, and rants may be excused on the fact I haven’t slept in like 80 hours and I’m still pushing on. -The Hacha Cha

Don’t worry I’m still on a strict drug and alcohol intake regimen, as you’d know if you are regular reader.

The Move

It was mid-December when I met Joan. Joan was a transgendered girl, ie a chick with a dick. I was at a bar with some friends and Joan approached the Katie, the girl who had taken me out that night with her friend. Joan asked if I was bi or straight or what and a few minutes later she came over and talked to me. I honestly didn’t know Joan was transgendered. In fact Katie didn’t realize Joan was transgendered until a few weeks afterwards. Joan and I ended up going over to a table by ourselves and she ended up asking me what I did and asked if I smoked weed. “Do you,” I asked before answering. “Yeah, I love it”

“Me too actually.”

“You holding?”

“No, I wish.”

“Yeah if I had some we could go outside and smoke a bowl.”

Before my friends were ready to leave Joan asked me if she could have a kiss. “Sure, why not?” We exchanged screenames and I went home and checked out her myspace. That was when I discovered that Joan was transgendered. The next day we started chatting and I found out she was HIV positive and had Hep C. She told me she had been addicted to opiates for years. At the time she was 28 and had started with darvocet at the age of 14. She came down with a friend of hers, he turned out to be very flamboyantly gay. I have nothing against homosexuals, but I do think some gays try to live up to a stereotype instead of just being themselves. In fact I believe most homosexuals are bisexual in some way. Kinsey was probably infinitely more accurate with his sexuality scale than the narrow pigeonhole classification system of exclusively straight, bi, or gay.

So Joan and her friend took me back to their places and we hung out and smoked some weed. It turned out Joan had just inherited some cannabis plants that had been abandoned by their original owner. I guess he had reason to think someone he had pissed off was going to call the law on him. Out of nowhere Joan asked me if I would move in. “I’m really lonely by myself out here.” I thought for a little while and at the time it seemed like farming cannabis and opium would be an adventure and me and Joan seemed to get along fine. So I decided to move out into the middle of nowhere for a little while with Joan.

The plants were huge and there were at least 30 of them, most of them being several feet tall. I started adding better lighting, adding nutrients, and generally reading everything I possibly could on growing cannabis. I became the garden’s caretaker, but what were Joan’s intentions? At first I couldn’t tell if she wanted anything more than friendship and someone to hang out with and help him grow pot.

New Host

Welcome! This is the new address to The Sick Life. I, Paregoric Kid, will still be writing about my adventures, I recently moved and am working on getting internet access at my new location. Unfortunately Billi has decided to close junkylife and that is why I have moved the blog. Billi has always been a very kind person and has personally helped me out in a few big ways not to mention the free blog hosting. Also, I know I haven’t posted since December but I have been writing I just haven’t gotten the chance to post it yet. This life I’ve been living with narcotics among other drugs has been going strong for nearly a decade and while junkylife may be finished my life as a junky is still continuing. To give you a preview of my stories to come they involve me moving out with a very “special” lady, becoming a farmer of sorts, and more of my take on the death of the American empire from a libertarian perspective. Stay tuned folks.

[ Final Post on JL server: Unfortunately I have received the sad news that Billi has decided to close junkylife. I want to thank him for making the best project of its kind anywhere and I hope he is doing well and wish him luck in whatever he is doing. Thanks a lot for everything you've done for me and everyone else over the years. It has been a fun ride. This life I’ve been living with narcotics among other drugs has been going strong for nearly a decade and while junkylife may be finished my life as a junky is still continuing. Also, I know I haven’t posted since December but I have been writing I just haven’t gotten the chance to post it yet. To give you a preview of my stories to come they involve me moving in with a very “special” lady, becoming a farmer of sorts, and more of my take on the death of the American empire from a libertarian perspective. If you wish to continue reading my blog the new address is now http://thesicklife.wordpress.com ]

You Know You Got It, If It Makes You Feel Good

Time went by and time still goes by. Sometimes it goes by fast and other times painfully slow, depending on whether I dosed or was sick. I started doing electronics and computer work for people as a way to get some extra cash. When I’d get really low on money I’d use my Gibson guitar as collateral for methadone and dilaudids. Unfortunately my dealer ended up moving about an hour away so now it meant no more collateral and that I’d have to start planning 2 or 3 visits a month instead of being able to just walk across town any time, any day. It wasn’t easy or cheap to maintain a steady diet of methadone, dilaudid, morphine, amphetamines, Ritalin, cannabis, alcohol, and an array of other drugs (on occasion). Then again, it wasn’t particularly hard but it’s never fun or easy being sick.

The CES turned out to be an excellent addition to the routine. Luckily my friend gave me some electrodes they had gotten a few years back for their TENS unit and it worked perfect for my CES unit. I’d turn it on before taking a dose or when I started feeling really sick. It definitely makes you nod harder, several times I fell asleep only to awaken hours and hours later to find the electrodes lying on the bed. No wonder it was originally called electrosleep. So far my anecdotal evidence seems to confirm studies that suggest it to be a good potentiator and withdrawal aid. I would like to build some for other people to see what results they get with it.
Another interesting device I came across was a nebulizer. The only problems I’ve had was getting the right concentration and amount of water to use. It seems to work good though, I’d say definitely better than snorting for some drugs.

It pisses me off that people are on the ban salvia bandwagon. We need to organize and stop this. I suspect there will be less research into salvinorin analogs if it becomes illegal. If the claims made about the salvinorin analog herkinorin are true and it doesn’t get studied further that will be a tragedy. At least the states are banning it instead of one federal ban. I wrote a letter to the editor supporting keeping salvia legal a while back but I doubt they published it.

My friend in the army had retired and was finally out of the service. He was bordering on becoming addicted again but most of the time he just stuck to pot and alcohol. One night at his house I met a girl who had a script for focalin. She gave me some for free and sold me the rest of the bottles for pennies a piece. I think I prefer it to Ritalin but just a bit. Focalin is d-methylphenidate, while Ritalin is the racemic mix of 50% dextro and 50% levo methylphenidate; similar to how Dexedrine is pure d-amphetamine while adderall is a racemic mix of both isomers. In fact both Dexedrine and Focalin are twice as strong by weight as their racemic mixes.

Well I’m winding down, need to wait about a week for the methadone to be available more frequently again and for my Ritalin to get filled. I’m out of pot which Is no big deal but pot Is always nice to have. So for now it seems I’ll have to work with my 40mg of methadone, 20mg of hydroxyzine, and my CES unit.
Oh by the way check out www.ronpaul2008.com

Stable

Things have been going pretty good. Pretty stable with methadone lately but financially I’m always broke. Being broke doesn’t really bother me; it just means I have to live simpler. I’ve been really busy working on various CES circuits and when I finish the second one I’m working on today I plan to start working on LED dreamachine glasses and an EEG machine. Once I find the best CES device I will offer some in return for a “donation” (aka cost of parts’). Wetware hacking is becoming my hobby. I’ve been thinking about going to college for electronics or nanobiotechnology but I’d need to find a campus close to a methadone clinic. I would like to get my hands on a new synthetic opioid that is a salvinorin analog, it is called herkinorin. Allegedly it does not cause tolerance or addiction/dependence because it does not induce receptor internalization or beta-arrestin interactions. Since salvia is not controlled herkinorin would not be controlled either. I’ll try and post more on the next dose.

Watch the Watchers and Phuck with Phone Taps

There is a technology known as Van Eck phreaking which allows a person to see what is on TVs, computer monitors, etc. Anything with a CRT and LCD monitors are vulnerable too. You can make your own Van Eck phreaking device, called an EckBox very cheaply. How an eck box works is that it uses an AM radio receiver to pick up the electromagnetic radiation that leaks from all monitors and TVs and converts it into audio signals. These audio signals are fed into your computer running the eckbox software and converts the audio signals back into video. If done right it is possible to pick up signals from up to 5 kilometers away but I expect that an average device only works up to a few blocks away. The eckbox project can be found at http://eckbox.sourceforge.net/ and if you want to know more just google Van Eck Phreaking or TEMPEST.

Now on to fucking with wiretaps. Most if not ALL wiretaps used in the US rely on two C tones played at the right frequency while your phone is on the hook. This is so that it does not record hours upon hours of dial tone. When you pick your phone up off of the receiver the c tones stop and the device begins to record. If you would play a loop of these c tones during a conversation in the background (it doesn’t have to be loud just loud enough to be heard on the phone line) the wiretap will think your phone is still on the hook. Another fun thing you can do is create false calls by playing the ctone, calling someone, turn the ctone off and dial another number. They will now believe you have called a number that you haven’t really called. If you want a clip of the mp3 and some links that prove this works check out: http://www.jetcityorange.com/wiretap-C-tone/

Right now I am building a Cranial Electrotherapy Stimulation device which delivers up to 800 microamperes of electricity to your brain through electrodes placed behind the ears. It has a long history of safe use, in fact there really isn’t anything bad that it does. CES has been proven to increase endorphins and raise levels of dopamine, serotonin, and norepinephrine. A feeling of euphoria and lightness can be expected after using CES. It is approved for use in depression, anxiety, insomnia, and even drug addiction. There are studies that show using CES can be effective for some people who are withdrawaling from narcotics. It is also said to potentiate drugs which work on the CNS, so I believe this could be a new tool for potentiating opiates and perhaps for getting off of opiates. If you want to read more about CES check out http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cranial_electrotherapy_stimulation and if you want to build your own CES device check out http://www.redcircuits.com/Page19.htm

Right now I’m kind of sick, having trouble getting to sleep and since my fentanyl patch wore off two days ago all I’ve had to hold me over till tomorrow is 200mg of propoxyphene, but at least I feel good enough to type. Maybe tomorrow I’ll write a decent entry.

Expect More

Hey I should be adding a post very soon. Plus I’m going to try and make a habit of writing frequently again. Sorry I haven’t been sticking to this lately, there has been a lot of shit going on but I guess that’s always the excuse. I put shit off too much, I need to change that. Anyways, go check out A Scanner Darkly if you haven’t already.

Combat Rock

Krist had turned into a narc. He called a friend’s job and said they were stealing medicine from them, he called another friend’s doctor and told them he was selling his medication. Allegedly he called the cops and made up some bullshit too. I didn’t know what was exactly true but my one friend quit their job and the other friend got a new doctor. No one got fucked except Krist, who had only accomplished giving himself a bad name, receiving death threats, and losing his bestfriend. At this point I started going down to DC to hang out with some friends of mine who had gotten injured in the army. A lot of kids are coming back from Iraq fucked up, physically and mentally. Stick them in a small depressing room on or off base at a hospital with no friends, nothing to do, and easy access to drugs and alcohol and you get a lot of drug addicts and alcoholics.

My tolerance was getting ridiculous. It was getting to the point where I couldn’t even really feel anything more than not sick with just a little bit of that warmth. I tried shooting heroin on top of my methadone, doing large doses of morphine with it, even tried mixing methadone with temazepam, valium, xanax, ativan, anything, but it wasn’t the same. Maybe it was time to be sick for a little while in order to reduce my tolerance. From experience and from what I’ve read I know that even a week off would lower my tolerance. On days when I didn’t smoke weed I finally started to really notice and appreciate how much cannabis potentiates opiates. This is a fact that is documented in medical studies.

There is so much more to tell and I will, be patient.