Archive for July, 2006

Updates from the Sick Zone

July 27, 2006

For a while I just smoked a lot of weed and hash while taking large doses of methadone and amphetamines. Krist and I went to NYC one weekend to catch a free show in Tompkins Square. The show was pretty good. On the way there and on the way back I smoked and we’d both do some lines. Everything seemed better. For months things seemed better because there was a steady supply of everything. I was in a state of constant happiness. But funds flew away as fast as they came and I managed to spend all of my money before I had the chance to invest it in something that would make me money.

I remember one morning Krist came over and I was really tired and trying to go to sleep, but I stayed up because he bought me some methadone for hooking him up too. He had to go to the post office to drop some packages off and on the way there I started feeling really sick. The watery eyes, the runny nose, and that terrible feeling in my stomach started coming on earlier that day. I hadn’t taken my dose yet because I was waiting for the tagamet to kick in when all of a sudden Krist turns down the next street and I can’t hold it anymore. I rarely ever throw up but I was overwhelmed with sickness, I felt it coming up and forced my head out the window and puked a liquid spray all the way down the street and the next one he turned on to. There was puke all over the side of his car door but he said, “that’s ok I’ve done that to my own car myself.” Krist had the tendency to throw up when he took a big dose but I rarely ever threw up from anything. Maybe I throw up once or so a year and usually when I take a dose with too much alcohol. This was one of the only times I could remember throwing up from being sick and I hoped it was not an indication of a new regular withdrawal symptom.

Methcathinone is almost exactly the same as methamphetamine. There is only a very minor structural difference between the two. They can both be synthesized from pseudoephedrine but the methcathinone is much easier and doesn’t leave a toxic mess as a result of the reaction. It’s also supposedly more euphoric. It’s a simple oxidation reaction you can do in your kitchen. Prices are similar to methamphetamine. Sounds very interesting.

Lately I’ve had an interest in the old tinctures of the 19th century. Things like tincture of cannabis, wine of coca, vinegar of opium/tincture, laudanum, and all of the variations. In the US Ranbaxy Pharmaceuticals still markets deodorized tincture of opium, man I would love to try that stuff someday. Paregoric is still made as well but isn’t as potent. They prescribe the modern laudanum for diarrhea and pain.

I’m still not sure if I want to go on the trip or not. To be in a constant state of sickness doesn’t sound fun but if I can raise some funds I’ll definitely go. Amsterdam sounds like a better vacation. $5 a gram hash, OTC dihydrocodeine and codeine, legal mushrooms (though I’m not much of a fan), legal khat, the red light district, and absinthe and lots of other interesting goodies. It just sounds like a fun place.

Please keep your patience I hope to write a lot more often soon.

To Travel

July 1, 2006

After the show in NYC, me and Krist planned to head across the country to Portland in late July. It’s hard to decide what to do. Krist was thinking about joining the Navy after the trip, it’s something I couldn’t understand. He’d have to get clean before going to basic training if they even accepted him. Traveling is one of my favorite things to do and there were a lot of good cities we could hit up in between but I couldn’t be sure if it was the right thing to do at the time because Krist wanted to make it be 6 months, then down to 3, now he says it will only last 2 months or so. It would be interesting to meet fellow junkies across the country and see new places.

One night I got the chance to do 12 methadone and 4 darvocet. I also took a 2mg lorazepam tablet sublingually and snorted a bunch of amphetamines. A friend gave me a Ritalin tablet and that went well with it too. I also smoked some really good weed and I also smoked some coca leaf and kratom also with the full set of potentiators.

The process of taking potentiators is an elaborate one that begins with taking a multi-B vitamin pill with some 5-HTP and magnesium, followed by a couple tagamet, a sip of grapefruit juice and glass of tonic water that contains quinine, followed by a swig of robitussin. After a half hour or so passes, maybe even an hour, I add a ½ teaspoon of baking soda to some water and drink that. Then I swallow my methadone and darvocet tablets. Took the ativan sublingually. When the methadone starts to kick in I smoke some weed. Snorted amphetamines throughout the day and then the Ritalin I got. It felt so good, after being sick for so long, finally taking a healthy dose of good medicine; it really lifted my mood. The same day I found out that a kind admirer of my writing donated a significant sum of money to me. That came in handy.

Jane the nurse called me and talked to me for a while. She was no longer a nurse and was now working at some shitty hardware store. “We should hang out, I miss you.” Maybe I would go visit her that weekend. It had been a long time.

Some Saturday evening the phone rang. “Hello?”

“Hey what’s up?”

“Krist?”

“Yeah, hey we should take a trip to Baltimore. Maybe go to the world’s smallest church. It’s in upstate New York.”

“Wow, then we could head over to Canada.”

“Yeah stock up on some codeine.”